I had another restless night last night as I tossed & turned thinking about all the things that could go wrong when Gabe goes to Kindergarten. I am a mess! It's like pulling the bandaid off a healing wound slowly...I wish I could just yank it quickly and see it's alright.
I am just overwhelmed with the thoughts of influence. Who will be influencing him? What will influence him? Will he have the courage to do what is right when being influenced to do what is wrong? Will he be bullied? Will he be overly nice & get walked on? I know it's only kindergarten but kids are mean these days. For the last 5 years my job and role as a mother is to protect him, keep him safe, nurture him...not that I will stop that role but he's growing up and my role is changing some. I am trying to cope and deal with what that all looks like. My heart wants to stay with him all day, be sure no one hurts him, make sure he eats enough lunch, and gets to where he needs to be safely. But my mind says Sarah get a freakin' grip...it's only kindergarten. It's okay for him to experience hurt and it's no big deal if he doesn't eat his lunch. Like I said I am a mess!
Today I rest in, Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares for you. 1 Pet. 5:7